I just found out the worst thing a girl can ever hear.
My suspicions were right, and D is in love with K. I snooped like I shouldn't have, but I am glad I finally found my reason.
D told K that the only reason he was with me was because he needed to get over the girl who broke his heart.
So for the past two years, I've been living a lie, because I knew about it, I just never had the guts to admit to myself what I've been suspecting about the person I love was right.
At first, I was shattered. I began hyperventilating, and all I wanted to do was to freak out and hurt someone/myself.
But if he doesn't respect me enough to tell me the truth, or even to not use me in the beginning, then he doesn't deserve me to do anything for him, ever again.
I went to K to tell her not to break his heart, and whether they will start a relationship or not, she should be good to him.
That will be the last thing I ever do for that man.
This blog has way too much to do with my life with him, and starting May 18th, I will be leaving the country for close to 2 months.
So the next time I speak to you, it might be through a new blog. I will have a new mindset, and things will be different.
Goodbye for now.
Do as I say, not as I do.
6 months ago